It all started when I married my highschool sweetheart. He wanted to have children and I didn't. I didn't like the thought of bringing a child into this world and going through what I had went through as a child myself. But he persisted and I am so thankful that he did.
After having a miscarriage I was reading my Bible one day about Sara and Abraham. I had read the story many times and knew it so very well. But something was different.....the words just seemed to leap from the page into my heart. I then knew I was to have a child and her name would be Sara. I know without a doubt that I heard a voice telling me this...I knew it was God.
One night at our church, my pastor called me up front. He said what he was about to say he had been struggling with. He then proceeded to tell me that God had told him that I was pregnant and that I even had a name. He said her name is Sara. No one, absolutely no one did I tell this! Not even my husband. I began to cry...God had confirmed what He had told me. You see, when my husband wanted children, I hadn't. I know God put it on my heart to have a child and then when I had a miscarriage it was devastating! So for God to tell me that I would have a daughter and her name would be Sara, then confirmed through my pastor....I was thrilled! We all know how long it takes to have a baby, so I had a girl and guess what her name was?
She was my most precious gift. I loved her unlike any other before. I woke to her sweet smell, her sweet smile and her little precious smile just consumed my whole life. She was my princess.
Even back then I loved pink and she wore it every day. My mother in law even asked me if I had clothes for her in any other color, lol. SARA looked absolutely beautiful in PINK. Nothing but PINK would do.
Sara was my pride and joy, always with me at all times. She loved her Mammaw Garnette just like I did. I always thought if I ever had children that I would want them to know her like I did as a girl. And God blessed me with that dream.
As she grew....I knew I had always wanted a sister or brother....since I was an only child....I wanted that for her. So then along came her sister Hannah(which is another story entirely). Sara was so excited to be a big sister. Something she has done with flying colors.
I couldn't have asked for any better...my two little angels. And just look at how she was teaching Hannah to pray...
The love that they shared was something truly amazing...something I had always wanted. I was seeing their love grow right before my eyes. She was the best big sister anyone could ever want!
As she began to grow, I saw such beauty...she was becoming a young lady...just radiant and so full of life. She made me so proud!
I couldn't believe my eyes...she was almost the size of me and then one day she just passed me up. I then began to look up at my little girl. Then I realized she wasn't that little girl anymore.
She had become a beautiful young woman before I could even blink my eyes....starting to drive, liking boys, thinking about college....I just couldn't believe it!
Where had my little girl gone that I used to take naps with, cut up oranges for and watch The little Mermaid with?
I'll tell you...she is my best friend, the one that I share my life with, my hopes and dreams for her with, the one that I laugh and can be sarcastic with, the one that makes me so mad and happy at the same time with....she is my first little girl who'll always be that sweet baby I held in my arms 18 years ago and got the every first smile from. She'll always be that little girl that called me Mommy. A name that I am proud to be called(now when she wants something). I now have graduated to Mom. But I will always love my little girl no matter what....
Happy 18th Birthday Sara!
Mommy loves you!